I hate myself for a lack of determination that holds me back. It has
long been said that if I was as focused as I am talented I'd be a
millionaire by now. The said part is that I know that to be true and yet
I can't seem to find proper motivation. I mean I got a family now so
obviously I'm more motivated than before and slowly I feel a change in
my spirit. On the whole however I just don't have the drive to go that
extra mile right now and it bothers the hell outta me knowing that I'm
the only thing holding me back.
--dizzy
2 comments:
First off, I hear you. I've lost motivation to do a lot of things over the years. I haven't written anything new since college practically because I haven't had any new ideas and sometimes that bothers me. But the conclusion I've come to is that sometimes life gets in the way. Sometimes you have to do things you may not necessarily want to b4 you dedicate your life to your dreams and sometimes later it turns out that you needed to do those things in order to achieve or work towards that dream. Things happen when they are meant to happen. I think right now there are bigger things that you need to do before you completely dedicate yourself to that dream. Maybe you can take smaller steps right now towards it. You'd still be doing what you need to, but you also won't loose sight of what you really want. Not sure if I'm making sense. Maybe you feel that you are losing your motivation because you are not going for things head on like you used to, but that doesn't necessarily mean that you completely lost your motivation. The situation has change from when you originally were going into this and you have to change your life to accommodate those changes. I may not agree with your dream, but I believe that if you want something, you have to work towards it and sometimes that work includes things that have nothing to do with it, things that you need for survival. And although you may have made mistakes, as we all have and do, I know you are determined when it is something you want and you will do what you need to to get it. So you may have lost your motivation right now because of life, but i know somehow, someway you'll come back to it if it's something you want.
"you are your worst enemy" i dont know who the fuck said it but damn its true... but i loose my motivation a trick i sometimes do is force myself to go thru a whole day without a dime in my pocket... being hungry not having a spliff or a brew... looking at the homeless on the streets and thinking like damn that could easilly be you... yeah its negative but when you turn on ya t.v. and see ya favorite rapper is just as easy to remember that you could be inhis place too... make sense??? i dunno whateva lol.
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